10 things I never thought I'd say / think / feel / do / wear since having Emily

It is amazing what having a child does to your life.  You go from a loving couple, who had plenty of disposable income and could do things at the drop of a hat without a thought for anyone, sometimes even for each other; to becoming a loving couple of parents, 100% committed and responsible for this new life that YOU have created.  

It is SO adult!

It really got me thinking as to how different things are now, and the kind of things I think, do and say now that darling Emily is in our lives.  I wanted to share a few with you... thank you for reading!

10 things I never thought I'd say / think / feel / do / wear since having Emily.....

• Say:
• "Chris, come and look at her poo!!  Look at her poo!  It's the biggest she has ever done!"  Surely all parents are this proud of their child's achievements?!
• Have entire conversations with my mummy friends about our babies.  Their sleeping.  Their eating.  Their pooing!!  We literally talk of nothing else.  It is so sweet when I tell Chris about my day and he asks if we talked about our husbands when I saw my friends, and I honestly have to tell him "No, all we talk about is babies"!

• Think:
• I can't believe how I worry about Emily.  Is she warm / cool enough?  Is she happy?  Is she full?  Who will look after her if I'm not around?  The worry is constant.  My Mom told me that and I didn't believe her.  She was right!
• All I want is another baby!  Isn't that crazy!  I have one amazing, Epic Angel baby... and all I want is another one.  Right now!  I never thought I would feel that way and so soon after Emily arrived.  I probably started to think about it when she was 8 weeks old!  

• Feel:
• Immense, bursting, crazy, mad, incredible, unreal love and amazement every single day that this little being was created by me and Chris.  And that she looks at us with such awe and happiness.  It is truly breathtaking!
• Amazingly overwhelmed when looking back at the videos and photos we have taken, with how far Emily has come.  From a tiny wee pink blob, to a real little person.  A little girl.  With personality!  How has this happened so fast?  How can I freeze time, or go back to those mad first few weeks and relive it.  Every second.  I miss it.

• Do:
• Use formula - it all began when we started solids.  At my Plunket course, the teacher was adamant that you could only add breast milk or formula to baby rice cereal.   I was in a panic.  Emily is NOT having formula.  You don't know what's in it.  She needs me, she needs MY milk.  But I wasn't interested in expressing milk.  Hmm!  However we decided to try formula, and blow us down, she gobbled her first taste of rice cereal up like it was her last meal!  
• Use a bottle!  I had envisioned I would breastfeed Emily until whenever, when we decided to stop and then she would drink cow's milk.  However, when she goes to The One (her carer), she will need to drink something during the day - not cow's milk yet - and as I wasn't too keen on expressing, we tried a bottle of formula recently.  Again, our little Epic Baby surprised us and took to it almost immediately!  So easy!  So she currently has one bottle of formula a day, but soon I will increase this to 2 bottles a day, while breastfeeding her morning and evening.
• Express my milk!  When I decided to give Emily a bottle of formula at the 10.30am feed, I didn't really think or realise what what happen to my boobs!  They are used to being fed from, and needed some help to go from 7.30am - 2.30pm with no feed in between.  So I used a friends' pump and expressed a teensy bit, just to help my boobs cope!  It worked really well, I think I only did it 3 days in a row for about 10mins a time, and now all is well.  I will need to do this again when I drop that 2.30pm feed.

• Wear:
• My work clothes and pre-pregnancy jeans so soon after having Emily - yay!  It feels great to wear normal clothes again!
• Trackpants quite so much.  I am a firm believer of looking nice even when you are at home, why slum it when you can glam it?  However, no one is looking at me except Emily, and it is SO comfy in my trackpants!  So why fight it :)

I'm sure there will be many more of these to come, every day brings something new in this household!